Poetry With Me

Waiting for you was the worst thing I have ever done

Watching the years pass me by while you lived your life

I tried to walk away to leave the piece of your heart that you left with me

But I kept seeing your face the sadness in your eyes made me feel cold and empty

Embarrassed to love anyone else because I knew I could never love them the way I loved you

Shadows of you embedded in my memory 

Knowing I need to lock away the desire I have to hold on to your lies 

I just want to be loved by you and only you and I can’t understand why

My heart aches for your touch the way the desert begs for rain 

But in my deepest truth I know I’ll never see you again. 

-gv rioz

Once a long time ago I allowed myself to dream about a love that I realized would never come to fruition. I should have stopped myself then but so many years passed and when I finally woke up and decided to focus on myself that is when that love tried to come back. Almost as if they knew that I was finally letting them go. Like a part of me reached out to them and said goodbye and they finally after many years decided I was worth their time. But quickly after, I realized, they didn’t love me just the idea of being with me and holding on long enough that they could look back and see I still loved them while they continued to drag me along.

Dear Reader, I hope that you don’t waste your time and allow someone to put your heart on a shelf while they live their life. You deserve so much more. You deserve a love that will cherish you and want you everyday. Not just when it’s convenient. A love that will shine through the hardest or the darkest of times. Someone you can depend on and you can open up to.

I guess what I’m saying is maybe I’m not just talking to you…

With Love,

Gv Rioz